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and
I
couldn
’
t
imagine
how
it
ever
was
or
ever
would
be
again
.
Sometimes
I
felt
like
I
wasn
’
t
even
present
anymore
,
like
the
person
who
used
to
be
able
to
engage
with
life
just
wasn
’
t
home
.
你是否有过重新拿起儿时玩具想玩时却想不起哪里好玩的经历?那些玩具看起来毫无意义而且很无趣吧?抑郁就是看到所有东西都是那种感觉,没有什么有趣的或能让人高兴的,我也无法想象过去快乐是什么样的,再次快乐起来会是什么样,有时我感觉自己好像不存在了,好像以往和生活斗争的那个人不在家似的。
It's
10.30
am
,
and
your
alarm
clock
has
been
ringing
for
the
past
30
minutes
.
You
slowly
open
your
eyes
,
even
though
you
really
don
’
t
want
them
to
.
现在是上午10:30,闹钟响了半个小时。你慢慢睁开眼睛,即使你内心并不想这样做。
Come
on
,
you
can
’
t
stay
in
bed
all
day
again
!
快点,你不能再赖在床上一整天了!
But
your
feet
just
don
’
t
want
to
get
from
out
under
the
sheets
.
Just
like
every
morning
there
’
s
a
shadow
sitting
on
your
chest
,
pressing
you
into
bed
,
and
hurting
you
so
much
you
can
’
t
help
it