【卫报】超模建造儿童乐园丨第48期

Poverty is humiliation. You feel like there is something wrong with you, not with society, especially as a child. You see other children who are happy and you think it must be so incredible. You daydream a lot about not being yourself. Maybe that helped me model.

贫困是一种耻辱。尤其是在孩童时期，你会感觉自己哪里不对，却又无关社会。你看见其他的孩子们都很高兴，而你会觉得这非常不可思议。你总会白日做梦，希望不要成为当下的自己。也许正是这种感觉帮助我成为了模特。

Boys in my school in Nizhny Novgorod hated me. I was unhealthily skinny because sometimes we had nothing to eat. They used to draw me like a stick. And the stigma against my sister [Oksana, who has cerebral palsy and autism] brushed off on me. They called me dirty.

我的学校位于下诺夫哥罗德，学校里的男生们讨厌我。我当时由于有段时间没东西吃而瘦得皮包骨头。他们曾经把我画的像一个竹竿一样，而且将对我妹妹（Oksana,她患有大脑性瘫痪和孤独症）的羞辱也加注在我身上。

I have an animal sense for danger and make decisions based on intuition. I arrived in Paris at 17, but changed agencies within the week. On the second night, I was taken to a nightclub with some guys. Nothing happened, but I was a young girl so I liked young guys, and these were not young guys. A day or two later the Viva model agency said: "If you ever want to change..." and I was like: "Yes, right now."

我对于危险有着似动物般敏锐的直觉，并且我靠直觉来做出决定。我17岁的时候来到了巴黎，但仅用了一周的时间就改变了一些机构。在第二个夜晚，我被一群人带到了一个夜总会。并没有任何事情发生，但当时我当时还很年轻，所以我也喜欢年轻的男生们，不过那并不是一群小伙子们。一到两天后，Viva模特经纪公司对我说：“如果你想改变的话……”，而我就像是在说：“是的，我现在就想改变。”

Having a sister with special needs taught me love - and patience. As a child Oksana's idea of fun was opening all the kitchen cupboards and mixing everything together. She'd sit on top of the pile and be like "Ha!" It's catastrophic for a family which doesn't have food.